I never remeber to check this often. but noone really seems to read it anyways. well summer has started. I have not been home. and as weird as it is to say this, I actually miss home. yeah weird right?

It's been a long time guys. I just wanted to let you all know I am alive and well, for the most part. I am dating a wonderful guy and life is still going on no matter how slow or boring it may be. I love you all and whenever I get a chance I will update. Love you guys. Hope to talk to some of you before we all disappear.

just a quick update for the friends of Maegan, she's grounded, for life pretty much, and won't be on here for a long time. she just gave me her Password and let me tell you guys. Have a nice summer people.

All of you out there who have someone, cherish them with all of your hearts. You will never know just how much they mean to you until you don't have them anymore. You will hear this a thousand times from everyone you know, many times in your life, but you have no idea how lucky you are to have someone who loves you. Having that is one of the best things in the world. Do not take advantage of it. do not ever think that you can get away with anything. Do not treat them any less than they should be, because when you lose them, you'll realize just how much you wanted them. I'm not trying to be emo or anything, all I'm saying is that when you love someone and lose them, you don't want to have any regrets. You don't want to think 'I should have done this' or 'I shouldn't have done that'. Treat them with the respect they deserve. Don't ever let them think you don't love them if you do love them. Just treat them with everything they deserve.
I regret everyday that I didn't.

So as much as you've just hurt me, just know that I still love you. Know that I'll be here when you finally can handle it, if ever because if you can't handle me now, I don't know how you'll ever be able to handle me or anyone for that matter. But I hope you live well and know that even though you are being a humongous ass, I'll forgive you at some point. If I ignore you, you really deserve it. And to think you told me you loved me last night...
I really hope you see what you've just thrown away, because you may never get it back...
I loved you, just know that.